I want to be up front and honest with everyone who takes the time to read my posts. You may have noticed that sometimes I go for awhile without posting, it's not because I don't want to because I seriously think about my blog ALL THE TIME but sometimes I just don't have it in me.
So here it is.... something that yall may or may not know about me is that I suffer from pretty serious depression. My depression is considered clinical which kinda means it's a chemical thing in my brain. It has nothing to do with what is going on in my life and I could have the best life ever but I would still be unhappy. Of course I go thru times where I am happy and am able to have fun but other times it is a struggle. I've been to 2 different counselors and I've been seeing a psychiatrist lately but I just don't "click" with him so I'm in search of someone new.
When I get off at 4 I have often times come home and fallen asleep around 6 and I will stay asleep until my alarm goes off the next morning. In the morning when my alarm goes off it is the hardest thing ever for me to get out of bed and put effort into getting ready. I often go to work with my hair pulled back and no make up on and just feeling crappy. I know that if I took maybe 15 minutes to put on some make up and fix my hair then maybe I would feel a little better but it's easier said than done and I'm not sure that I have it in me.
This is something that I'm trying to overcome daily and even though it isn't something that will ever go away 100% I hope to have it under control soon.
So there you have it.